Writing is one of the most solitary activities in the world. Once every two years, I sit down in front of the computer, gaze out on the unknown sea of my soul, and see a few islands- ideas that have developed and which are ripe to be explored. Then I climb into my boat- called The Word- and set out for the nearest island. On the way I meet strong currents, winds, storms, but I keep rowing, exhausted, knowing that I have drifted away from my chosen course and that the island I was trying to reach is no longer on my horizon.
I can't turn back , though, I have to continue somehow or else I'll be lost in the middle of the ocean; at that point a series of terrifying scenarios flash my mind, such as spending the rest of my life talking about past successes, or bitterly criticising new writers, simply because I no longer have the courage to publish new books. Wasn't my dream to be a writer? Then I must continue creating sentences, paragraphs, chapters, and go on writing until I die, and not allow myself to get caught in such traps as success or failure. Otherwise, what meaning does my life have? Being able to buy an old mill in the south of France and tending my garden? giving lectures instead, because it's easier to talk than to write? withdrawing from the world in a calculated, mysterious way, in order to create a legend that will deprive me of many pleasures?
Shaken by these alarming thoughts, I find a strength and a courage I didn't know I had. They help me to venture into the unknown part of my soul. I let myself be swept along by the current, and finally anchor the boat at the island I was being carried towards. I spend days and nights describing what I see, wondering why I'm doing this, telling myself that it's really not worth the pain and the effort, that i don't need to prove anything to anyone, that I've got what i wanted and far more than I ever dreamed of having.
I begin our of a feeling of duty, but suddenly the thing takes hold of me and I can't stop. I am tired but I must write just one more line, one more sentence, one more page. I am not longer in control of where I place my feet, the island is being revealed to me, I am being propelled along its paths, finding things I have never thought or dreamed of.
The book writes itself, the writer is just the typist.. NOw I know that this is absolutely true, no one knows why the current took them to that particular island and not to the one they wanted to reach.
It is a constant source of surprise to me to discover that other people were also in search of that very island and that they find it in my book. One person tells another person about it, the mysterious chain grows and what the writer thought of as a solitary exercise becomes a bridge, a boat, a means by which souls can travel and communicate. From then on I am no longer the man lost in the storm. I find myself through my readers, I understand what I wrote when I see that others understand it too, but never before. I understand that my soul is not alone.
From Coelho's the Zahir