Lately i have discovered things that have opened my eyes. It's a CLICK,not a photoshooting click ,an AHA-moment click.
Not about writing,but about life.
It is like a black shakespeare -curtain opening up ,actors coming out, stories ,lives to be known ,to be a part in.
If before i was a spectator ,a poor one because i was the audience of myself not of the events and people around me ,now i am an actor ,i have a plot ,a gist ,goals to be finished at the end of the show .But the most important thing of all is that i am not faking ,i am true ,playing myself.
I am me and if i act not to please an audience but to please an invisible eye ,sth far greater, far deeper i will be praised not only in this life but even in the other.
Have you ever felt that you were on top of the world ,that you could do anything ,invincible and powerful? HAve you felt like flying ,full with energy and ideas and hope lingering around you?
And have you ever felt so low that you could bite your nails , eat your heart out, feel a slithering cut of melancholy and solitude in the middle of the night as well as in the sunshine peak of the day ? Have you felt depressed ,trapped with fears and doubts?
I HAVE.I am sure you have...everybody has..
Some days ago i had feelings of loneliness ,shyness and guilt.
Guilt ruled ,it was powerful, it was cruel....
Today i am surprisingly calm and peacefull like a quiet sea with white waves.
I was the sea in every wave :why then some of the waves were bitter and some sweet?
I am the actor of my play(life) why then in the same play i perform excellent and bad ?
Today i read the saying: feeling small is a reflection of how you see yourself not of how others see you. Feeling powerfull is the same thing.And yet at both cases it is me .
It is wether an ilusion or a desilusion.
Everyday you hear or read sayings like: you have your life in your hands ,or if you believe you are a winner you probably are, or everything can be atchieved if you believe , but what they are missing is the main point.
You need sth to be focused ,you need an exaple in your life.Since people live with examples all their lives why not choose the right one ?
I choose an eye,i choose Jesus.