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VIRTUAL LETTER TO LORIE

Dear Lorie,

I have been reading your letters. You always make me think. I tell you that the example that I chose is my father. Jesus is too much abstract for me.
Today, I was sat down in a park, in the green, drawing some sketches in my notebook. In these kinds of moments is when I can be during hours just looking around, in silence, observing people, listening to movement of the trees... (it's like becoming invisible for a while). I was thinking of my desire to come to Chicago. I remembered when I told about my desire to my father during a lunch. He didn't answer me in that moment. He just listened to me and I know he was reading in my eyes more than what I was talking there. Deep down, people complain, I have complained lot of times even I do, but people love routines. The reason seems to be very simple: routines give them the false sensation of being safe. Today will be exactly like yesterday, and tomorrow will bring no surprises. When night falls, part of the soul complains that nothing different was experienced, but another part is content – paradoxically, it is for the same reason. “Evidently this safety is completely false; no one can control anything, and a change always appears at the moment one least expects it, taking us surprise and with no chance to react or fight (like love?).
What is reality? It is that which we imagine it to be. If many people “think” that the world is like this or like that, everything around us crystallizes, and nothing changes for some time. However, life is a constant evolution – social, political, spiritual, on whatever level it may be. In order for thngs to evolve, it is necessary for people to change. As we are all interlinked, sometimes destiny gives those hindering evolution a push. Generally in a tragic way, but tragedy depends on the way you see it. If you chose to be a victim of the world, anything which happens to you will feed that side of you where you consider yourself wronged, suffering, guilty and deserving punishment. If you choose to be an adventurer, the changes – even the inevitable losses – can cause some pain, but will soon thrust you forward, forcing you to react.
I was reading this afternoon that in some oral traditions, wisdom is represented by a temple, with two columns at its entrance: these two columns always have names of opposite things.
I would call to one Fear and the other Desire. When a man stands at this entrance, he looks at the column of Fear and thinks: "my God, what will I find further ahead?" Then he looks at the column of Desire and thinks: "my God, I'm so accustomed to that which I have, I wish to continue living as I have always lived." And he remains still; this is what we call tedium. Tedium is... movement which ceases?. Instinctively, we know we are wrong, and we revolt. We complain to our family, boyfriends, girlfriends, husbands, wives, children, neighbors. But, on the other hand, we know that tedium and routine are safe havens.
Can a person remain his whole life in this situation? People can be pushed by life, but resist and remain there, always complaining - and their suffering will be useless, will teach them nothing.
We can stand for the rest of our days facing one of the many doors we should go through, but we must understand that we have only truly lived up to that point. We may continue to breathe, walk, sleep and eat - but with less and less pleasure, because we are already spiritually dead and does not know it.
"Until one day when, as well as our spiritual death, physical death appears; at that moment God will ask: "what did you do with your life?" We must all answer this question, and ohhhhhhhhhhhhh those who answer: "I remained standing at the door."