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Re: Letters unwritten- how many have I Written?

Citim:

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Po citoj ato që tha lorie
Where are you?
I don't see any of you, and i tell you i am not blind. I have 4 pair of eyes just to see you,and a some- pound- brain to think of you, but i can't. Are you vanishing? Are you tired? Difficult Answer. i am here but I am tired. I am tired of struggles I have no energy to struggle. I gave up without fighting
Life can be a struggle at times, but i read you , i search for you and you are still distant.
Here's my hand ,i stretch it to you.
Why do you leave this grey baackground and letters?
Why are u indiferent? It's not that I am indifferent. I am simply silent. and I haven't left this grey background or letters. I simply have no inspiration what to write about. there is a period of ceasefire inside me. and during it I can't write because what inspires me is the fire or the pain the happiness or the tears
I thought your fire was a burning passion and a neverquitter ,i thought you were a soldier and a fighter. Where is your glowing light?
I see the darkness in you.
Why wouldn't you resonate, be bright and glorious?
Where are you DREAMERS?
How many dreams have you accomplished lately? something yes. more no. I have still to find out what should i dream for. but many dreams disspair as the illusions. just have to find some other illusions to fight for....
Are you moving people with your dreams? Are you moved by yours?
Are you moving spiritually or are you still stuck in the same vicious circle of optimism-depression/high state-sad state again and again without solution--I can reach the sky and then even though you are the same person you see yourself in a totally different disgraceful light.
Where is the measurement for everything?
And can dreams be measured?
Where is the soul -seraching journey if you don't have the tools?
Where is the zeal of life in you ?
Do you know?
Have you found it?
What makes it trigger?
Your selfish dreams?
Your humanity?
Your passionate heart?
Your God?
or your perverseness?
What is it that you are looking for?
Happiness? In what?
In f**king with no emotion?
In making circular trips of soul ?
In ilusion of a perfect mate,perfect car, perfect family, perfect friendship?
Is that what you are dreaming of?
Perfectionism? Do you think there is one?
ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR MIND?
Do you have one anyways?
Don't you see the times we live in? Are you blind?
Don't you sense a terrible war of spirits happening each and every day?
Don't you feel a war inside you when you find the angel in you and the demon in you?
HAve you asked yourself what triggers that war inside you?
HAve you asked yourself why you find yourself in deep sorrowful waters and at times in high euphoric moods?
It is not bipolar disorder believe me.Psychologist can find millions of names for our spiritual states but what is happening inside you is the exhausting fact that God and Satan are fighting over you. Each wants to claim you, to make you His.
What dreams do you have now? i want peace in my soul and in my mind. no struggles anymore.
Don't you think you have to pray that a dream like this: 'I want to be in your Kingdom God ,not in the Demon's one ' can get accomplished.
Don't you fear for your soul?
huh?
No?
Serious?
unbelievable!!!
Whatever you choose, it will be judged in the pay-back time. I have made my agreement with God and he loves me for what I am. there is something I try to keep pure. What belongs to him in a human - the heart. thats my only law I try to follow always.. to have a pure heart. all the rest is not important. a pure heart makes things better
I pray for you. - I pray for you too

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